I wonder if anyone is still out there reading this -- it's been so long since I last posted. Hellooooooo???
Isn't there some verse, probably in the Psalms, that talks about clouds and darkness surrounding the Lord? (I hate it when I can't find a verse.) Anyway -- this describes how my relationship with God has felt recently: as if he were very distant and shrouded. I miss the good old days when it was easy to know that God is Immanuel, God-with-us.
But the cool thing is that there is a verse in the Bible (I know there is!) that describes what I'm experiencing, in contrast to all of the many happy verses about God dispelling darkness and our walking in his light. The truth is that God is there in the darkness too even if hidden, like the sun hidden -- but not gone -- behind the clouds in this strangely wet Dallas summer. "I answered you out of a thundercloud" (Ps. 81:7).